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Jan 27 2026 01:48PM
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My client passed away
I had posted a blog a few months ago in regard to having conflict of feelings and being upset and unsure of what to do once a long time client would pass from stage 4 pancreatic cancer, because as the hidden state of our client provider relationship.
He passed on December 8. I didn’t find out till a month later after had been texting and calling him to no answer..
I did not get to go to his funeral. I don’t know where he’s buried. I didn’t get to pay my respects.. the amount of sadness I feel is indescribable.
He was a good man. I pray, prayed hard a for him. He was at rest now after suffering the way he was towards the end. I still pray that his soul reaches wherever they go. And that he forgives himself any transgressions that he had. One of my last conversations with him was whether or not he would go to hell for being involved with me despite being married. He and I never had a sexual relationship as it was purely fetishes. I assured him that he was fine and that whatever high power is but understand. And that when he was ready to go, just go. They said he had three more months. He only made it three more days after the conversation. When I found out the news of his passing I was driving and I started crying so hard I crashed my car. I’m fine. The car is not. But I’m having a lot of trouble processing.
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Aug 8 2025 11:25PM
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Unexpected grief (verbal diarrhea)
One of my long time clients, who I genuinely consider a friend of mine, was diagnosed with stage four pancreatic cancer. He’s one of the nicest guys and send Christmas and birthday cards as well. He just retired to find out that he’s got 90 days or less to live,
I’m so sad because I know I cannot, as a provider, pay my respects publicly or go to a funeral. I have unfortunately been relegated to mourning for someone that nobody in my life knows of completely alone.
I’m trying to figure out a way to process my emotions and the shock of everything.
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May 29 2025 09:46PM
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I need to vent and trauma dump
My dog Blanca is the love of my life. The sweetest girl ever.
However, she chose today to show me what an asshat she is capable of being.
She snatched my dinner straight off the stove while it was still hot!!
There was oil and mess everywhere and all over her. I was angry at her (and now I�m hungry!!) but she burned a bit of herself so she was sad, I couldn�t even be as angry as I wanted to be. My poor bad little baby.
Have any of u had your animals do some truly bad shit and u still felt bad for them like me ? Or am I just a sucker ?
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May 13 2025 06:19PM
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What do u sleep in? (Funniest answer gets 500 fx points)!
I sleep naked and I always get told : what if there�s a fire/earthquake?
My crotch goblins sleep in undies and socks
My elders sleep in moo moos
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Apr 2 2024 06:12PM
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Just moved here
I just moved to Riverside from Huntington Beach because I am pregnant (6 1/2 months) and I am loving it more than i thought I would. However, my only complaint so far is the lack of really great food spots.
Can anyone suggest their personal faves??
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Nov 13 2023 06:27PM
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Retirement
Hey everyone
I have taken a few hiatuses do to medical reasons and a really ugly car accident. And haven’t been active here much as this site has also changed a lot since I first got here. I have decided it’s time to move on with my life and I’ll be retiring soon. This was a fun chapter of my life and I met a lot of people that were wonderful people, some of my best friends. Now I’m ready to close this chapter. I will be retiring in January. I want to start next year off enjoying my new job and focusing on my current pregnancy….
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Aug 15 2023 05:02PM
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SEEKING: A swingers club or group, preferably a civie one
Anyone know where I can find one, or go to? I have been out of the lifestyle for minute, but looking to make my way back in...
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Jan 13 2023 02:31AM
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I'm back Biatches!
Hey everyone, after a 2 year hiatus from hx I came through to show some love. There's a few familiar (and fabulous) ppl still here ��
However, anyone wanna introduce themselves? Update me on sight changes, any good gossip? (Lol,)
I will be trying to be more active an definitely looking to make new friends
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Apr 30 2018 08:13PM
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Seeking a body shop
There was a gent here who used to post his shop, but its disappeared..
Looking for shop to fix my car and *work* with me a bit on the prices...
Pm me please!!
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