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RavenousBeauty
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Unexpected grief (verbal diarrhea)
Aug 8 2025 11:25PM more by RavenousBeauty
Tags: Orange County, Random (All tags)

One of my long time clients, who I genuinely consider a friend of mine, was diagnosed with stage four pancreatic cancer. He’s one of the nicest guys and send Christmas and birthday cards as well. He just retired to find out that he’s got 90 days or less to live,
I’m so sad because I know I cannot, as a provider, pay my respects publicly or go to a funeral. I have unfortunately been relegated to mourning for someone that nobody in my life knows of completely alone.
I’m trying to figure out a way to process my emotions and the shock of everything.
      
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SonOfAdams
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Aug 9 2025 02:09AM     link to this

Wow. I was expecting paragraphs & paragraphs about this subject, but it was very short.

Very sorry to hear about your friend & his sad situation. I know many here will come down hard on me for saying this, but you could go to his funeral for your own closure including learning things about him that you didn't know (unless it's invitation only).

Ultimately, what's going to mean the most to him is how you treat him when he's alive. I'm not sure what you can do for him given the little time he has & how he'll probably be spending it mostly with family, friends & medical personnel And your presence would raise some questions.

Just my perspective. Good luck.
RavenousBeauty
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Aug 9 2025 02:42AM     link to this

It was many paragraphs, and I decided to condense it for fear of ridicule and boring people, and I forgot to change the title🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️
RavenousBeauty
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Aug 9 2025 02:43AM     link to this

And thank you for your input.
SmartK9
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Aug 9 2025 05:22AM     link to this

Having lost many friends and loved ones in my life I know how difficult it can be not to be there. If you have any type of a belief in the “hereafter “ as I do, he will know of the troubles you are feeling. You’ve already honored him with what you said here and what you say in your heart and he will be fully aware of them. Don’t beat yourself up over not physically being there.

AFMadness
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Aug 9 2025 08:13AM     link to this

I can't Stress enough to go to the rncstore . com and get your Apricot seeds.

One video I sent to K9, towards the end, there is a new study that has confirmed Chemo causes cancer to spread. But no one believes me, so you're on your own. It's a matter of what you don't know can and may kill you.

Sorry about your friend. I was able to goto my friends from here, two others showed, and there was this mysterious women hangin out. No one knew who she was. I went for the very reason for closure. It did help. I suggest you go.
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maleinocca
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Aug 9 2025 08:46AM     link to this

Im sure that even if u can’t see him i. Person, a call to express ur feeling , at this time , will be very valuable to him . Best wishes
notsofast
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Aug 9 2025 10:41AM     link to this

I think that three ladies that I have seen here are no longer with us. We were not close and certainly not regulars but it still feels weird to think about.

Bummer that you have to go through this alone RB...
tommy1nut
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Aug 9 2025 12:58PM     link to this

Hi sweetheart, it sucks when secret friends are taking from our life’s. Celebrate the person their are. Remember the good times and keep them in ur heart and they are with you always. T
RIP my friends
jindd1328
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Aug 9 2025 05:24PM     link to this

Western and eastern cultures agree on some things when someone we love departs this planet.

It is who they left behind on this planet that matters, and how the departed is remembered by their loved ones on their last day on earth.

I don't think you will hurt your friend's feelings if you do not attend his end of life celebration. He is dead and will not notice that you were not there.



scotty949
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Aug 10 2025 02:44AM     link to this

I'm so sorry you're going through this. It’s clear he meant a lot to you, not just as a client but as a genuine friend. Grieving someone privately, without being able to attend the funeral or share openly, is incredibly hard.

If you trust this community enough to post here, consider writing a short tribute to him, what you loved, what you'll miss, and share it. Even if others don't fully understand, it gives your grief a voice. You deserve that space.

Also, think about creating a small personal ritual. Write him a letter, light a candle, or visit a place that reminds you of him. Grief needs an outlet, even if it’s quiet.
RavenousBeauty
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Aug 12 2025 06:51PM     link to this

Ty everyone for your kind words and advice. He has made a back story for me so I can go and grieve for him and pay respects. Even with his life almost at the finish line, he still cares and worries about me. When I had cancer myself, he was a rock
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Aug 12 2025 07:02PM     link to this

Beautiful! Didn't know you also had to face cancer. I can understand more why he means so much to you, that he helped you through that. Good luck to both of you!
RavenousBeauty
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Aug 12 2025 07:23PM     link to this

Ty so much
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