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Dalliance
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Then there's this
May 20 2025 09:48PM more by Dalliance
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I lost someone recently… someone I saw often, someone who quietly became part of the rhythm of my days. In this kind of work, you're trained to keep things separate, to build clean lines between connection and care, between personal and professional. We use different names, we reroute our numbers, we construct these walls to make sure nothing spills over… but real life always finds a crack. It always seeps in.
And then suddenly they’re gone. No warning. No invitation to grieve. You’re not family. You’re not listed anywhere. Sometimes no one even tells you at all.
I was lucky enough to be informed… if lucky is the right word
Grief is a strange thing when it shows up sideways like that. When the bond existed quietly in the corners. When the relationship wasn’t defined by holidays or photos or labels but by patterns and presence and the way someone can settle into your life without ceremony.
And now they’re just… gone. No trace. Just the empty space where they used to be.
That’s it. Just wanted to leave this somewhere. Because even if it lived in the margins… it still mattered.
      
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Socalsblz
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May 20 2025 09:56PM     link to this

Sorry for ur lost !!!!

But I’m here if u need a new connection 😉😉😉

Be strong and time will heal ur heart and soul !!!😬😬😬😁😁😁😁
RobBlakeFan
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May 20 2025 09:58PM     link to this

I'm sorry that happened to you. Life's a bitch for sure.
stevie_bee
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May 20 2025 11:11PM     link to this

My condolences. You have such a way with words. I think it’s amazing how you turn your sorrow into poetry. Most of us idiots can’t even string together a thought without 13 spelling and grammatical errors. I’m sure your friend is looking down smiling at you for your beautiful words.
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May 21 2025 12:44AM     link to this

What Stevie said. Exactly!
Mozis
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May 21 2025 04:00AM     link to this

life matters
Laafan
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May 21 2025 05:00AM     link to this

yes it did matter...our brains always have a plan but our hearts dont always agree to cooperate...im glad you got to meet someone who touched your heart...i wish you health happiness and peace of mind
littlemissalice
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May 21 2025 07:05AM     link to this

hugs dalliance

irisheye
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May 21 2025 07:17AM     link to this

Saying some prayers for you.
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May 21 2025 07:40AM     link to this

@Dalliance

I know the feeling exactly and you have described it in the most eloquent way. Thank you.
AFMadness
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May 21 2025 08:03AM     link to this

Ya been there too. It's been a year now since 5/5. I'm like why did it have to be that day. And there are so many numbers to my parents and there passing that match up with hers. Weird to those who do not understand, oh well... I should write to the Numerologist I learned it all from just to see what she would say.

She considered me and told me that i am a life long friend. I found it hard to believe in this business but over time it became clear to me she was.

RIP
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check57
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May 21 2025 08:43AM     link to this

So well said. Despite ourselves I have a couple nice and long-lasting friendships with ladies I met here.

It happens...
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May 21 2025 10:07AM     link to this

So sorry to hear this.

Sometimes in doing this we cross lines and develop friendships and feelings. It’s hard when we aren’t able to say goodbye because we aren’t supposed to exist.

My condolences.
football_fan86
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May 21 2025 02:56PM     link to this

A very heartfelt and well written blog post. Very true.

Most of us have three “lives”:
A public life
A private life
A secret life

HX is a secret life for most of us. As you said, secret life friends / lovers usually disappear without a trace. At least you found out the albeit sad reason for your friend’s absence.

Sorry for your loss.
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May 21 2025 05:46PM     link to this

I think about the all the time. And it does suck because we will never be notified. We just never know. I hate that feeling
Dalliance
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May 22 2025 01:15AM     link to this

Thank you all for the kind words. This line of work is wild sometimes… we share some of the most intimate moments with people we are not even allowed to really know. It is a strange kind of grief quiet and private but real as hell. Just wanted to say I appreciate you all for seeing that
big1234
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May 22 2025 06:43AM     link to this

I'm sorry for your loss.
OCHarley
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May 22 2025 12:14PM     link to this

Dalliance...so eloquently put and ever so true. I feel for you. It certainly is real life.

Sorry for your loss.
tbysstudios
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Oct 8 2025 10:52AM     link to this

Very well said. I am sorry for your loss.
Ingridcolombian
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Oct 8 2025 12:24PM     link to this

So sad 😞
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